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1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Friday, 22-Dec-2017 22:51:22 EST PlatinumKatie
   i dont know why im still alive
   1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Friday, 22-Dec-2017 22:54:32 EST PlatinumKatie

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      i keep fucking up, i keep ruining everything, i dont mean to, i never ever mean to, i try to correct it but then make it worse, constantly hurting the people i care for, constantly hurting the love of my life, hell, these posts are probably doing something wrong too.
      
      just fucking kill me
      1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Friday, 22-Dec-2017 22:58:36 EST PlatinumKatie

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         if i make it til christmas i'll just end up fucking that up too. why does the world keep me alive. why am i not just gone, its not for lack of friggin trying. i love my wife, i care for the few friends i have, i dont want to keep hurting them. i dont want to keep hurting the one person in this world i would do anything at all for. 
         1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Friday, 22-Dec-2017 23:02:31 EST PlatinumKatie

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            this isnt mean to be a pity post, a come look at me post. its because i genuinely do not get it. i cant wrap my head around it. the world, is not letting me die. and i clearly fucking need to.
            
            i dont get why i still breathe. i dont get why anyone in this world can claim to like me. i dont understand how this one woman i fucking adore can claim to love me. s
            
            whats so goddamn worth preserving in me, a useless stupid fuckup like me. what am i missing here. 
            1. tekk (tekk@social.tekk.in)'s status on Friday, 22-Dec-2017 23:04:09 EST tekk

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               @katiekats You're missing that you don't notice the shit you do right because it doesn't get mentioned. You're doing better than you think.
            2. Bob Mottram (bob@social.freedombone.net)'s status on Saturday, 23-Dec-2017 03:56:03 EST Bob Mottram

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               @katiekats I think you're ok. On some level everyone is stupid, so it's a common predicament. The technical term would be "bounded rationality". Life isn't really a competition to deserve to exist. People still have value regardless and the value of any community may be greater than the sum of its parts.