uh so whenever I get pms or get an upset tummy my brain goes straight to wanting to be dead, I get very upset and just want to be dead. now, I don't feel like I'll actually kill myself but I think about it a lot and just wish for it and cry. I try to tell myself it'll pass but I also know it will return so that doesn't really work. I'm ill with swollen glands so don't wanna go out in the snow anywhere. advice appreciated x