bailey//rockruff⚪
i've been feeling like absolute garbage lately, like i want to completely disappear because it doesn't feel like i'm making any connections with anyone anyway, and losing all the ones i already had
seems like a lot of others have been feeling down lately too, at least in my scope. i wonder what caused this, or if it's just all coincidence
bailey//rockruff⚪
idk. it's really been feeling like i've experienced all i can, and life is only gonna get harder with fewer rewards from here on out, as always
i'm not suicidal but i very much am not in a good headspace and i feel completely alone most of the time
bailey//rockruff⚪
i feel like an outsider because i can't function properly enough to even pretend to be part of our current society and i feel like i'm slowly falling behind everyone else and becoming irrelevant
bailey//rockruff⚪
i think part of why i feel bad is that it as already slowly accumulating, but then chitter went down and i couldn't see or talk to anyone on here and it made my feelings of isolation 10x worse
bailey//rockruff⚪
not to fault the admins; they're doing a lovely job with chitter and i'm honestly impressed it's been such a smooth and reliable instance all this time. just bad timing nobody could've foreseen
bailey//rockruff⚪
i don't feel like dealing with this right now tbh. bottling things back up for a bit
i've only been doing it for like a year now, it can wait a little longer
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