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1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Sunday, 03-Jun-2018 00:34:55 EDT PlatinumKatie
   i just want to be listened to 
   
   i dont mean off the cuff responding to a point i didnt even make
   
   i mean actually listening
   
   i dont care when people disagree but please, god, just listen
   
   i know im an idiot, i know i have my issues, but constantly being drowned out or having things i do and say twisted, is driving me insane
   
   never having bad faith until it comes to me
   1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Sunday, 03-Jun-2018 00:38:34 EDT PlatinumKatie

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      posting these things will probably be taken in bad faith too, responded badly too, and i'll cry a bit, and then i'll just shut up, nothing will change, this will just be a blip in which i was apparently an idiot
      
      so i dont know why i do
      
      i just also dont see anything ever having the -chance- to change unless i do, so.
      
      maybe im grasping at straws
      
      sure, i've worries, i've a chip on my shoulder. i get it. has to come from somewhere tho right.
      
      or perhaps im just not worth listening to, perhaps its ignored or twisted, to make me feel the fool because thats just my purpose. im just shitty and ought to be ignored.
      
      tell me if thats actually the case, feels it sometimes, least then id know.
      1. PlatinumKatie (katiekats@community.highlandarrow.com)'s status on Sunday, 03-Jun-2018 00:46:42 EDT PlatinumKatie

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         i wish i were some sort of robot, so i could just click the reset button when i step out of line too much
         
         i dont have anything good in my head right now
         
         im in bad way,
         
         im sorry
         
         damn it, i just wanna fade into darkness
         
         i just wanna be, mindless, just obeying, following, shutting up. that'd be so much easier and it feels, so much more pleasing for anyone else. 
         
         im rambling on, screaming into the void
         
         i beg, i know im broken, i know im useless and pointless and hated, but im me. i dont wanna be hurt or hated. i dont want my thoughts ignored. my opinions viewed as mistakes.
         
         i wanna be cared for, for who i am, broken nature and all.
         
         if that cant be done, im sorry. i failed you then.