Wednesday, I smoked some marijuana had a horrible anxiety attack and landed in the Emergency Room. Why did I do this? Because I don't give a shit anymore. My life sucks, my mom is in a nursing home and needs 24 hour care. My dad is verbally and emotionally abusive. My only two IRL friends are too busy or on the other side of the country to help me. I just wanted an escape and it all went to hell in a hand basket, the cops let me off with a warning, so that was cool of them.