Visually, I don't feel like I'm anything to write home about.

Plus I feel like there is something admirable with the confidence and courage that some women have when they can show off their bodies which is something that I don't have. I don't want to show off my body but it's not something I want to be afraid of at the same time.

Like I probably won't dress up provocatively when I'm out and about, and I have less incentive to do that now because I feel like it is done for male attention or attention overall. I don't need the attention of strangers. For this same reason, I'm not going to take photos and share myself in that way. You never know what happens to those anyway.