There is an idea out there that because we are broken and fucked up, because we are attracted to the wrong people. To arseholes. That we don't deserve to be with the nice people, the ones that will help to heal us and provide an example of a good and healthy relationship. The opposite of what we believe we deserve. That we will just break them instead.
But I think it is worth rejecting this notion. I know how hard it is to do. How easy it is to be seduced into believing that I am too broken to be fixed, and that I will just drag everyone that gets involved down with me. How easy it is to let the fear prevent me from taking the risk... risk is scary. My brain will shut it down to protect me. Tell me stories to justify it. Play on my worst fears.

Even knowing this, there are times where it is worth taking a chance... risking it even though you fear the outcome. Even though you think the worst of yourself, and old patterns of thinking are familiar and an odd comfort. Like here, when you find that person to take a chance on... take it. Even if you have to do it while your mind is kicking and screaming. Be courageous.
You are worth it. You don't have to remain like a broken record, playing the same lines over and over. You can learn new lines, and allow others to be that example you need in your life. You can build a healthy life for yourself just as you can have a healthy relationship with someone willing to love you in return. The choice is yours to make. So make it.