Sometimes I wonder how much of a good or bad influence I am on the people that find me attractive. I'll freely admit that I've had a tragic past that has left me broken in many ways, even to the point of having the belief that I am too broken. I don't know a life without the beliefs and feelings that led to this. I've been depressed for so long. It is a point where I sometimes feel concern for those that find this aspect about me attractive. Especially if they resonate with it.