I've been thinking tonight about how I've conducted myself in the past towards people. Mostly with flirting and teasing, and I feel uncomfortable with myself. I used to think it was harmless and not serious, but I don't know anymore. I can scarcely recall a lot of what I said, and I can't believe I said some of it. I suppose I feel shame and awkward over it. I really need time to think over this. I suspect it seemed normal before.