@dt My body feels heavier when I know that I am being dishonest with a person, or have done something wrong.
Having to sit on something terrible you've done is an act of bearing a heavy weight. Maybe it was artificially issued by religious values and fear of punishment, maybe it's also a sickening feeling for me to hurt someone I love. I think a constant depressive struggle helps move a process of renewal.
I take great pride in being a man of my word, and keeping promises.