Conversation

Since mom died and I began treating my ADHD, I can’t shake this feeling that something is terribly wrong.

I know what being depressed is like, but that isn’t it. Depression is helpless or melancholic. This? It’s unnerving, disturbing, uncanny.

It’s anxiety.

I’ve had low key anxiety for as long as I can remember. It would only turn up sometimes, such as when I’m up too late, or it’s too quiet.

The ADHD drugs make me more alert. That’s their job. I suspect they’re causing all of this.