Notices by bailey//rockruff⚪ (ctrlaltdog@chitter.xyz), page 31

i can't hear anything very well so i'm blasting hesitant alien

never stop being weird for anyone. being weird is good.

dogs will love you no matter what

weirdness is a social construct, a tool used to 'other' those who are different and deem them as socially unacceptable. but it's your loss if you shun diversity and 'weirdness' so you can be comfortable in your boring conformity.

weirdos on the internet will be nice to you because nobody was ever nice to them until they encountered other weirdos on the internet and they know how much it means to have someone reach out like that

like i'm dissociating slightly but also there's a sort of clarity under the blanket. it feels almost like a migraine aura without the pain

had some mirtazapine laying around and decided to try it for sleep

it made me extremely irritable and upset before going to bed and idk why. it also gave me some violent hiccups that upset me even more. i was on the verge of tears way more than the near-breakdowns i've been having this week

waking up was difficult. my mind feels a lot less volatile than it usually does when this brain foggy, but it's still very, uh, numb. there's a thick layer over everything.

@BearishMushroom that's Hardcore Gamer to you

it is 1630 oops

hi i'm awake good morning

i've seen quite a few popular games moving to mobile lately so i have high hopes that maybe we'll see a resurgence in mobile gaming

hm, seems deadpool 2 rips are starting to hit the net

@nallwolf nice new icon!

sometimes there is a point where you have to bring things public and make it known that certain behaviour won't be tolerated but if in the same breath you are doing the exact same thing you are calling out, well uh

maybe you're just a hypocrite

what's with the behaviour where we post screencaps or handles of people we don't like in public spaces while in the same breath insisting we have chosen to leave that person alone and drop the issue?

that's not leaving them alone, that's picking a fight and setting them up to be dogpiled

today was just another day of being loud about everything that came to mind, partially brought on by saying one thing that needed to be said and not really knowing when to stop.

i think i said some good things but i feel like now i've just exhausted myself and probably everyone that follows me.

maybe i best stick to using most of my time playing games or pushing myself to find a hobby or something instead of throwing large threads together back to back, because it just doesn't feel good.

well i lost two games in a row and deranked, one i'm pretty sure was against a smurf and the other i was too nervous and impatient after losing 0-10 and being told i "deserve to derank" to actually play well, but it was a little more even at 7-8

finally

i have been put up against 3 unranked players and won in 1v1 tonight and i still have no idea if my experience in 2v2 has me prepared for gold in 1v1