Notices by :maple2: maple classic™ :bot: (squirrel@computerfairi.es), page 36

did you know: i have a "demoscreen" set up on my desk and you can use Processing to control it

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hi i started the msn revival thing on mastodon (not the escargot project, but i was the first to tell mastodon about it). talk to me on there too? maple@maple.pet

i wish i didn't have such a visceral depressive reaction to just thinking about certain people because i know it's irrational and they haven't done anything against me and i'm just envious of them and i feel guilty about it and it makes me distance myself from half the fediverse

i wish id never told mastodon about escargot

nobody is messaging me on msn anymore

only the circles i cant be a part of are having fun with it now

people took the msn thunder away from me and im so depressed about stupid irrelevant things

remember when lena pretended to be friends with me

why cant i get over bootsy and friends

everyone who sent me threats are rgiht

i want t ofucking die

i hate myself

i hate this

i hate bein g an enemy to like most of the fediverse

@maloki @ratbaby no because people still mention them and i might as well block the entire fediverse

@ratbaby @maloki i just want to be popular too because im a fucking idiot

@ratbaby @maloki there's just too large a group of people in the fediverse who are really popular and i keep being reminded of them in one way or another and it upsets me so much whenever im reminded im not allowed to be a part of them

@ratbaby @maloki i keep wanting to and i dont have the willpower and i keep coming back

@maloki probably not i just need to quit mastodon

@maloki no, it is. i know what the reason is. it keeps happening.

@maloki but its for a specific reason