it actually took me a bit after deciding i liked the idea of anarchy to realise just how disgusting hierarchy was and now i can't stop being eternally creeped out by any authoritarians including other communists who don't subscribe to anarchy
my initial decision to go down the path of anarchy was just "oh hey, working together as a community sounds great" and then i eventually realised the problems that was fixing (centralised power in the hands of the ruling class)